Hello there, Stranger!
Welcome to my humble little blog.

The name's Tammie, but friends call me Tam (not 'thumb').

Who am I, you ask?
I'm not that smart top-scorer girl in your class.
I'm not that pretty lass you always see on the streets either.
I am passionate, stubborn and emotional.
My absolute most favorite thing to do is hanging out with people I care & love.
My passion burns for Jesus & photography.
I wish to travel more and see more.

This blog was created so I get to jot down my feelings.
Happenings in life.
That is, if I'm not too lazy to update ;)

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''Sometimes when you do it too much, people will get tired of it. Before, it was our sincere feelings to help you get back yourself. But now, it's probably forced. Get it? Just try to be a little more positive and don't keep repeating what you are always doing if you really wanna keep true friends. We can't stop ourselves from feeling what we are feeling now. It's true, we can get tired too.''

I'm sorry we are not as friendly to you as last time.
At first, we really do care about you.
But our advice seem not to work on you. You know we get tired too if we feel you don't take our advice seriously? We think so much before advising you what to do.
You let emotions take control of you too much. If he's nice to you, then you get really happy. But if he ignore you, you get all emo. It's normal to feel emo, but I've really never experience a friend who is so emo. So maybe that's why I feel that you are very extreme.

Honestly, I feel that you are too dependent on us. You realize that we've only gotten to know each other for 9-10 weeks? You seem to cling to each of us for everything. I'm not trying to sound negative here, but it just looks that way to me. You purposely come late for class, just to see if we'll msg you in concern?
You should know that no one msg me when I am late for class lately. But the main point is, I don't expect anyone to msg me. I feel that it's normal if no one is concern if I come or not. Just because friends don't ask me where am I, doesn't mean I am not cared for. I feel that you expect too much from us. You should stop feeling so lowly of yourself.

Show that you are confident, loving your life and yourself, and people will naturally like you too.

He said your virus speared to us, but he is right, even though it sounds bad. No one likes a friend who always looks sad and sulk and don't want to talk. It makes the whole happy atmosphere looks dull and sad. We get affected if you keep looking moody. Makes us no mood too.
Do you know that? Yes, you said before it is your natural look, but I don't believe babies are born that way. I believe that, in your life, you worry too much. You think too much, so slowly, your expression turns moody even when you don't feel moody. Try thinking positively and smile more often. You look good when you smile. You may think it's a fake smile, but slowly, it will turn to natural smile. Just like how the moody look becomes your natural look.

I feel that we've cared for you too much, and you keep asking for more. And so we finally make up our minds to not care so much for you. You have to learn to stand on your own feet. You know Ash? He used to follow us around too. But when we don't show much care for him, he can stand on his own. He doesn't always cling to us.

I understand that maybe that's the way you show your friends what friendship is, by clinging to your friends. But that's not how everyone else's meaning of friendship.

I believe you are a really good friend, but you give too much, and you also expect the same to be given back to you. It's not right. If you give, you give willingly. Don't expect, because it will cause hurt and disappointment.

Tired means we have no more energy to layan. We need a break.
Ignore means not talking to you at all, even when you ask us questions.

The choice is in your hands. We are open to accept back a friend. If only you change your way of thinking. I'm sure we gave you enough advice, so you'll know what you should change or not. Change the negative part, not the good part.

Change, so that people will feel happy when mixing with you, not moody too.

Sorry, if I sound very mean and straight. But I think I should voice out how I feel.
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heh.

I know I've been MIA this couple of months. More then before.
and I only came back to blogger to blog about this song.

Save You by Simple Plan.

How many of you have heard this song before? I use to be and still is a Simple Plan fan. But it's been so long since I heard their latest song. The latest song I've heard from them is Your Love is A Lie.

So I was pretty supriesed that they have a new single, titled 'Save You'. I went YouTube to watch it.
At first I thought, ah nice song. Cool music video.

But then I got to the part in the video where it showed, 'Everyone featured in this music video is a cancer survivor or is related to someone who has cancer.'

I froze.
I blinked.
I teared.


I miss my grandpa.

I wasn't especially close to him while he was alive, but my dad always told me about grandpa's life.

Even while he was still here, I've nothing but respect for my father's dad. He was a strict man with great value. He was a great man, and I'm not just saying that.

He could fix almost anything, radio, car, tv..
He used to smoke, but he had the willpower to stop smoking for the sake of his family.
He loved everyone of his children and grandchildren...
and we lost him to cancer.

But cancer was God's way of brining my grandpa to Him. If it wasn't for cancer, my grandpa would never accept God's gift.

Yes, I miss him dearly. And I'm sure my dad misses him more. But God wants him back.
I don't know if I should smile or cry :')
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