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Welcome to my humble little blog.

The name's Tammie, but friends call me Tam (not 'thumb').

Who am I, you ask?
I'm not that smart top-scorer girl in your class.
I'm not that pretty lass you always see on the streets either.
I am passionate, stubborn and emotional.
My absolute most favorite thing to do is hanging out with people I care & love.
My passion burns for Jesus & photography.
I wish to travel more and see more.

This blog was created so I get to jot down my feelings.
Happenings in life.
That is, if I'm not too lazy to update ;)

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Sunday, December 12, 2010 @ 11:54 PM
#Day31 One Last Moment
I know I haven't apologize yet.


I mean it.

I haven't been carrying out my responsibility. The worst part is.. I haven't been a very good cousin. You know that. Sadly, I only realize that today.
I volunteered to do things without thinking about the responsibility that follows.

I guess this horrible feeling inside me is a punishment. Spoonfuls of guilt mixed with a tinge of self-anger.

So, my last moment to share.
It was when I realized that I don't really mind about short-lived things anymore, instead I focus on long term things. For this situation, at first, I didn't think I did anything wrong. I don't get why you were so pissed at me. I just felt that you've over reacted. I didn't even feel guilty. But then a feeling inside stopped me. I realized that if I don't apologize, I may lose this awesome cousin I've had. Thinking back, it was my fault. I agreed to it, but I never fulfilled it.

I was rather shocked at myself at this discovery.
A year ago, I would've been outraged and hold resentment at you.. But today? I just accept the fact that I've screwed up and try not to repeat it in the future.
No resentment, no hatred.
Exactly what the feeling inside me said.

I wonder if it has something to do with all the talking with Daddy Up There lately? He's been good to me. He opened up my eyes to many things lately.

Yes, I've messed things up. And I'm truly sorry. I promise not to be rash next time.
A moment of self discovery taught me all that.

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