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Hello Hurricane
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Hello Hurricane
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Hello there, Stranger! Welcome to my humble little blog. The name's Tammie, but friends call me Tam (not 'thumb'). Who am I, you ask? I'm not that smart top-scorer girl in your class. I'm not that pretty lass you always see on the streets either. I am passionate, stubborn and emotional. My absolute most favorite thing to do is hanging out with people I care & love. My passion burns for Jesus & photography. I wish to travel more and see more. This blog was created so I get to jot down my feelings. Happenings in life. That is, if I'm not too lazy to update ;) |
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 Saturday, September 12, 2009 @ 3:58 PMStory of a girl -part 2
If you haven't read the 1st part please do so before continuing with this :) To her horror a visible line appear a deep blue a line, no doubt. She was stunned for the next hour she sat on the bathroom floor sobbing crying still clutching on to the positive pregnancy stick wondering what is to become of her She called him. 'Hey babe' he said smoothly She told him. He was shock. He told her to be calm. He told her not to worry. He take care of things. She calmed down but terribly frighten. She waited for him to come back from wherever he is, to her. She waited and waited. But he didn't show up. She waits some more. Crying again this time. She tried calling him but was told his number was no longer in service she tried every possible way to contact him but somehow he seems to have disappear. She doesn't know what to do. Her belly is growing bigger each day. She despise that thing inside her It has robbed her off her freedom It has robbed her off her love life She just wants it to go away... She can't keep it from her family anymore. If she continues to wear baggy clothes her mother will start asking her appetite has grown too and she can't continue suffering the morning sickness anymore the vomiting was horrible and she gets headache every morning. She has to do something. she was desperate by this time, she was 18 weeks along. She had no one to turn to No one knew No one will know She has made her decision. And yes, she went to the Abortion Clinic- secretly, quietly, alone. The doctor did not say much He just briefly told her what he was going to do She only nod She wanted to run away but she couldn't.. She lied down on the cold hard table She didn't remember much Everything seemed dark and fizzy She just knew she wanted it done as soon as possible and she just felt dizzy.. There was pain There was blood lots of blood.. She was told she had lost a lot of blood She was advice to not move around too much after this She though she had passed out She was told it's over by the nurse she was still weak but somehow she managed to get herself out of that dreaded place.. Cold. Weak. Sobbing. All those happened 20 years ago. She's a married middle age woman now. married to different man. with 3 children of her own. None of them knew her past. And sometimes, during the night, when her kids are asleep and her husband snoring away next to her.. She sheds tears many silent tears for her unborn baby her first baby the baby she had killed. she whispers words of apologies to it but no amount of apology seem to make her feel better she regretted what she did she regretted how she felt towards it She felt like a monster. She was young She was naive alone and afraid that was the only thing she could do She hope that one day when she gets to see her first child in heaven, she'll hold it close and tell her how sorry she was for taking it's life before it could talk. She only hopes it will forgive her.. Hope. Because that's the only thing she can do. back to top? 7 comments |
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